Originally published January 14, 2009
376.
No, that was not my high school batting average, but I did have one of the best home run records one year in little league. But I digress.
April 10, 2008 I recorded my heaviest weight ever at 376.1
In November I was still around 373 on average and as of November 26, the “starting weight” they are using for my WLS I was at 369.5
By that time I had been without any pop for just over three weeks, having quit cold turkey on November 2nd. and yes, I really would like a nice cold Coke right now despite the fact that it is minus-ten outside right now. Oh, and for the record, even the lower sugar Gatorade tastes too sweet to me right now.
So today at the gym, the digital scale said 337.8
Even given a little variance in scales, that puts me down 30 pounds in about six weeks, and nearly 40 from my heaviest.
I’m not sure if I’m feeling much different about it yet though. Yea, I’m happy with the success so far. I need to add another notch on my belt cause it’s too loose (I’ve already tightened it two notches for those keeping score at home.) But I’ve been here before. I’ve dropped 30-40 pounds (never quite this fast) before.. only to rebound it back on and then some.
there is still a part of me, lurking in the back of my mind, just waiting for the other shoe to drop. Cause like in the past, even though I think I’ve been more dedicated then ever before, I have stumbled here and there, but I keep losing.
So while I’ve had some internal debates on the whole surgery thing, and I realize that until I’m out cold on the table it is not a done deal, I’m still planning on going through with it.
I think I am going to need that tool… that assist… in order to truly make this a long term thing.
I still have a couple last meetings with the psychologist to make sure I’m stable enough to deal with the surgery, and a few more weeks of this “medically supervised weight loss” to ensure I meet the insurance company requirements. But I have met every other requirement that I have needed to.
Potentially this could happen as soon as early March. It would be nice
to break under 300 before then… if I keep at the pace I have been, another 6-7 weeks and I would hit it.
And I still can not picture myself at say.. 250… even though I have sort of set a goal of 230. It’s probably been at least 20 years since I was anywhere near there. I keep thinking I’ll end up losing a lot of muscle in order to get that low.
I guess we’ll see when (not if) I get there.
